Forgiveness

Tonight marks a big milestone for me. Thinking back on all that I have overcome over the past couple of years, I realize that the analogy of the "rear view mirror" rings true.  How time really does heal all things. Heartache, pain, sorrow, regret. All of it. It's amazing to me to think back and realize how all of these use to surround every window and mirror and thought and action of mine. These demons consumed me.  As I sit here with a smile on my face and happiness in my heart and joy in my soul, I know with my whole being that I would do it all again. I would climb that mountain. I would allow the slips and step backwards to occur because with every step backwards I eventually took twenty steps forward. Man it's beautiful up here on top. I am loving the view. I know that there will be more mountains to climb and more trials to endure but I am okay with it because I know how to do it. The view that use to be out my windshield is so far in the rear view mirror that I don't even remember what it looks like anymore. I am okay with it. I fought hard to be the person that I am and I love her. She's funny and crazy and not so smart, but that's okay with her. She multifaceted and creative and ambitious (except on Friday's). She has dreams and hopes and desires and well not much feels like it can stand in her way.  Learning to forgive yourself plays a huge role in getting over who you use to be. Let it heal you. Forgive yourself. Forgive those who caused you pain and the most unbelievable heartache. I have. Now moving on...